Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Are you willing to? (the monster in me)

“Patience is power. Patience is not an absence of action; rather it is "timing"
it waits on the right time to act, for the right principles and in the right way.”

If there's one of the hardest and challenging things to do, it's the ability and the willingness to patiently wait. What are the things you think about when you are currently waiting reflects the attitude of the person waiting.


If I will asses myself at the moment this is one of my major weakness. To feel and to be irritable, impatient and worst be angry on the things and the people around me. Hardly I make my own problems and tryingly drown myself in pity of my own unreasonable reasons. When at the peak of my emotion I see Him/Them angry, sick and tired of trying to rescue me from my lost self. . . I will stop and tell them Im sorry for everything I did and everything I told them.



At the end of the day, I feel bad of hurting people, especially the people that loved and accepted me despite of my in-capabilities. If Loving them back unconditionally is the only compensation I can give, I am willing to give them twice of that Love. I am still normal, I know what is right from what is wrong, sometimes my rational mind triggers my emotion and kills the whole and effective me. I am DOING. I want to stop trying to overcome to control my emotions and act in reality and in maturity. I am just but human and I know I am not perfect but that is not a perfect excuse to make mistakes but more of a challenge to be a BETTER me.


I would like also to take this opportunity to apologize to the people that I hurt. It was never my intention to Hurt, because I know deep within my heart the pain that cause you. Sorry! I hope and pray that you can also help me to pray for myself. Thank You for the Patience, Understanding, Acceptance and Love that I can never imagine. Im speechless of how can I really express my gratitude. As I was typing this, I close my eyes and tell my heart not to forget loving You. 2423.


PATIENCE. Have the right attitude in Waiting.