Status: "Feeling Loved"

God has a perfect reason why I didn't have enough courage to love you back then. 
God had a perfect reason why I stood still.
God had a reason why I cried so much. 
God had a magical reason why we used to hold on that long.
God had a magnificent reason why moving on had been so slow.
God had a ideal plan in our lives.


God uses people to teach us
God uses people to shape and mold us
God uses people to make us realize
God uses people to accept us
God uses people to learn
God uses people to believe
God uses people to Love everyday.

11/27/2013 11:01 AM

Random thoughts this morning.

Forward

Many years had really passed. It was very quick that I didn't realize it was already almost 7 years. Idea is coming back just like there is something out there that I missed. I haunts me, even though I am doing all the means to not look back I am still peeking.

"Why?"

For the longest time I've been asking that kind of question, for also the longest time I never knew answers. 

What am I doing is the appreciation of what I have in reality. What seems to be better.

I really don't know how TIME and LOVE can move mountains. 

I was really shocked by the time (out of the blue HE to told ME to stop Looking BACK. Because all the time, I am spending my life in the present looking back. (what a cliche)

After that I was like I feel like a stupid child, helpless, lost, tired, longing for love, alone. I realize to appreciate HIM more. Especially when the time I think of the past. I forgot that HE appreciated me despite all the what ifs in my mind. I forgot to see how he change my sadness to smile.

I now realized that Moving Forward only starts when you're able to lift your feet to make that step and when you're able to continue stepping for the betterment of everyone. It is also looking on what's ahead of you and not merely starring at what's behind you. Moving forward is a choice. It takes time but I know that it will be worth the wait because time is really cherished. Moving forward involves you and only yourself. Moving forward is a choice, and it is for YOU to DECIDE.

Assume

What really can I write?

It's been really months again since I stop writing. I really don't know what to write or where to start this mumbling piece. I opened my hands to the little letters and free my mind from anything. How can I start? What I want to tell you? What do you want to know? What am I suppose to tell you? What are you suppose to understand? Why? How? How do I really explain everything that I should be telling?


Then I stop.

Why do we "Assume"? It is something implied. Something that we thought we know, something that we thought we understand, something that need not notify, something embedded that we cannot really see. 

How do we know we "Assume" right? By having the right actions running in our mind. We met the same conclusions with our emotions and attitudes by the right moment. 

How do we know we "Assume" not so right? When we cry. When our ideas, ideals are not met. When we are not appreciated enough by our decisions. When we just stop talking out of the blue, because we are angry. 


"Never assume unless other wise stated."

-- Accounting Subject Rule that never applies to reality. We "assume" because we have things that we know and that deep inside we feel its true. We "assume" because we believe that can make us happy. We "assume" because there is a reason - reason they do not know and understand.