I really don't know how to explain what I'm feeling.. I don't know if I should be happy because at last after years I saw him and after all these time I finally told him not to be assured of too much love from me.
Too much braveness.
It's killing me...I don't intend to Hurt him. my point is for him to realize that Love is not always loving people in silence.. it's about proving to the world that yuo love a person and letting them realize that they are special. I really don't know the impact of my "harsh" words on him... he could hate me.. hate me! =(. For sure I don't want that to happen.
Hopefully, one day he could prove to me that I'm not wrong. I don't want distance to make and break me again... Hopefully, one day I will personally understand why this is happening to me. Hopefully one day, He will also be brave enough to say and let me feel that I'm again loved (if he do?). I don't want to expect, it kills me faster, it hurts my heart and leave it wounded. Hopefully, one day I could say that I have again my angel, that sometime left me. Hopefully one day, I learn how to accept things, one day I could say I love and I'm brave to love over and over again.
One day, he will finally found what he is looking for... and that one day he can also realize that I still love him. Hopefully one day he could say that he became happy because of me.
One day everything will be alright.
Hopefully, I will not be sad. =(
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