hate to see myself deviating from reality.. pity of myself of how emotions sag from my little veins to my heart. This is the kaycee that I lost years ago, the kaycee that sadly I don't want to remember.. a person that wrap down around a mantle of love, but now lost again in hatred and anger.
i want to shout but i understand that no one hears me..
(they will never will to...)
i want to be understood in simplest way possible, but as you can see am Bad, not only bad definitely I'm worst than you ever think of.. maybe dying is the greatest appreciation for me, better way of understanding Me-- the difficult, worst, sad.
i want to talk to someone but i cannot.. why? no one will dare to ask me why.. and I know no one will understand me if I don't react.
I don't even matter, right? I'm just a little person making you're good world.. devastating it...
... tantrums of a 20 years old lady..
(maybe i should stop writing my story now.. THIS TOO SHALL PASS.. everything will stop and maybe tomorrow i will eventually be happy)
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
nice article =)
RELATIONSHIPS
Dating Tips: 9 Simple Things Women Want
1. Respect. Show us through your actions that you respect our opinions, careers, interests, friends, bodies, and minds. You don't have to agree with all that we say or do, but try to honor our opinions as valuable contributions. Follow the golden rule and treat us as you would like to be treated: Be honest, fair, kind, and considerate.
2. Romance. It's another night on the couch with takeout and TiVo? Just because we're staying in doesn't mean the evening can't be romantic. Light a few candles and see where the night leads. Treat us like your girlfriend, even after we become your wife. Date nights, physical affection in the car, kissing like when we first started dating -- all of the things that made us fall in love with you don't have to stop just because now there are bills to pay, a house to be cleaned, and kids to be bathed. Bring home flowers for no reason. We're not talking $100 bouquets of roses here. Even the $10 bouquets from the supermarket are enough to make us smile.
3. Time. We understand relationships can't be all wine and roses; simply making the time to be with us and treating us like your top priority says "love" more than all the fancy gifts and lovely letters ever could. This includes helping around the house. The realities of a 21st-century relationship are that both partners probably work. If you happen to get home before we do, why not vacuum the living room or throw in a load of laundry? If you take the garbage out without being asked, chances are you'll be getting a big ole smooch when you come back.
4. Dinner. Of the homemade variety. You may not be good at cooking and you may not know how to boil water. But greeting us at the door after a long day with fish sticks (or whatever you can wrastle up) makes us swoon, because it shows that you've been thinking about us and our hectic day.
5. Communication. Women are vocal creatures. We know you love us, but it's nice to hear you say it, too. We can also be insecure. We wish we weren't, but the reality is that we often notice our wobbly thighs and forget about our gorgeous eyes. So let us know when you think we're hot. Tell us we're beautiful. It helps us feel good. Words of appreciation aren't half-bad either. Tell us you love the lasagna we made. Notice that we cleaned the bathtub. It doesn't have to be over the top, just let us know that you see the effort we put in, and you're grateful.
6. Consistency. This doesn't mean be boring and predictable. It means that we know you will (usually -- no one is perfect!) give us the love and support we need. Knowing that you're coming at this with the same desires and energy as we are goes a long way to making us feel secure.
7. Engagement. Of the mental kind, not the "I'm getting married in the morning" kind. You don't have to like everything we like (we might be a little concerned if you do), but showing interest in our passions, be it career-related, a sport, or a hobby, goes a long way. Listen when we talk to you. We're not speaking just so we can hear our own voice; we want to connect with you and this is one valuable way we do this. This also means paying attention to the little things. Whether it's the name of your best friend's husband or the fact that you hate Nicolas Cage movies, it's the little things you remember about us that's so endearing.
8. Humor and Humility. These two tend to go hand in hand. This doesn't mean that you have to crack jokes or entertain us, but just being able to laugh at yourself is enough. Guys who take themselves too seriously bring everyone down.
9. Challenge. Not the kind that makes a relationship constant work, but the good kind that surprises and motivates us to do, be, or achieve what we desire. Studies show that partners who prod each other to meet goals -- in other words, don't support lazy or bad habits -- are ultimately happier than those who don't hold each other accountable.
Dating Tips: 9 Simple Things Women Want
1. Respect. Show us through your actions that you respect our opinions, careers, interests, friends, bodies, and minds. You don't have to agree with all that we say or do, but try to honor our opinions as valuable contributions. Follow the golden rule and treat us as you would like to be treated: Be honest, fair, kind, and considerate.
2. Romance. It's another night on the couch with takeout and TiVo? Just because we're staying in doesn't mean the evening can't be romantic. Light a few candles and see where the night leads. Treat us like your girlfriend, even after we become your wife. Date nights, physical affection in the car, kissing like when we first started dating -- all of the things that made us fall in love with you don't have to stop just because now there are bills to pay, a house to be cleaned, and kids to be bathed. Bring home flowers for no reason. We're not talking $100 bouquets of roses here. Even the $10 bouquets from the supermarket are enough to make us smile.
3. Time. We understand relationships can't be all wine and roses; simply making the time to be with us and treating us like your top priority says "love" more than all the fancy gifts and lovely letters ever could. This includes helping around the house. The realities of a 21st-century relationship are that both partners probably work. If you happen to get home before we do, why not vacuum the living room or throw in a load of laundry? If you take the garbage out without being asked, chances are you'll be getting a big ole smooch when you come back.
4. Dinner. Of the homemade variety. You may not be good at cooking and you may not know how to boil water. But greeting us at the door after a long day with fish sticks (or whatever you can wrastle up) makes us swoon, because it shows that you've been thinking about us and our hectic day.
5. Communication. Women are vocal creatures. We know you love us, but it's nice to hear you say it, too. We can also be insecure. We wish we weren't, but the reality is that we often notice our wobbly thighs and forget about our gorgeous eyes. So let us know when you think we're hot. Tell us we're beautiful. It helps us feel good. Words of appreciation aren't half-bad either. Tell us you love the lasagna we made. Notice that we cleaned the bathtub. It doesn't have to be over the top, just let us know that you see the effort we put in, and you're grateful.
6. Consistency. This doesn't mean be boring and predictable. It means that we know you will (usually -- no one is perfect!) give us the love and support we need. Knowing that you're coming at this with the same desires and energy as we are goes a long way to making us feel secure.
7. Engagement. Of the mental kind, not the "I'm getting married in the morning" kind. You don't have to like everything we like (we might be a little concerned if you do), but showing interest in our passions, be it career-related, a sport, or a hobby, goes a long way. Listen when we talk to you. We're not speaking just so we can hear our own voice; we want to connect with you and this is one valuable way we do this. This also means paying attention to the little things. Whether it's the name of your best friend's husband or the fact that you hate Nicolas Cage movies, it's the little things you remember about us that's so endearing.
8. Humor and Humility. These two tend to go hand in hand. This doesn't mean that you have to crack jokes or entertain us, but just being able to laugh at yourself is enough. Guys who take themselves too seriously bring everyone down.
9. Challenge. Not the kind that makes a relationship constant work, but the good kind that surprises and motivates us to do, be, or achieve what we desire. Studies show that partners who prod each other to meet goals -- in other words, don't support lazy or bad habits -- are ultimately happier than those who don't hold each other accountable.
Friday, October 09, 2009
dalawampung taon
parang hindi ko parin talaga alam simulan 'tong mga pasasalamat ko..
eh parang taon taon, gumagawa ako ng ganito..(medyo delayd lang ngayon, una dahil may malakas na bagyo nung birthday ko at walang internet connection dito sa Baguio.. pangalawa, hindi ko maharap mag-net dahil after ng baryo finals exams naman namin..)
hay naku..
twenty years of being "korina carla"
..naranasan kong umiyak, tumawa, madapa, maging malakas, magmahal, sumaya...
isang taon ng mga pag subok na talagang sumubok sa isang "kaycee"..
..oo mahirap, pero ayun.. lalaban padin ayun talaga ang buhay eh... pero hinding hindi ako nakakarating dito kung asan man ako... kung wala yung mga taong talagang ngaturo sa akin...
KAY FRANCIS AT KAY CORA. mga dakila kong magulang, without their LOVE wla ako dito ngayon.. salamat nga sa mga pag tyatyaga sa katulad ko, sa mga sacrifices, sa pagsesermon, sa pangangaral, sa sobrang suporta... i'm just very proud na ako yung anak ninyo! hindi ko man nasasabi most of the time kung gaano ko kayo ka-mahal pero i really really do.. don't worry hindi ko nalilimutan yung mga limitations ko... madami pa akong pangarap para sa inyo, para sa atin... I Love you both.
KAY PETER AT CAMILLE.mga kapatid ko.. ayee, tulad kila mame at dade, thank you sa sooooobra sobrang pang aasar ganun, salamat kasi sobrang bait niyo sa akin...hihi..
KAY MAMA at NANAY. salamat sa walang sawang pagmamahal, sa pag aalala... hmm, sa maayos na pagpapalaki.. basta, sa pag unawa niyo sa akin,,, i owe much.. very much sa inyo.. sobrang andyan kau, lalo na si MAMA... di nia ako iniiwan. ^^.
KAY BIBE. siya ung taong ewan ko ba, higit sa kambal ko, taong magaiba pero pareho kami... taong nandyan para samahan ako sa pag-harap sa buhay, samahan ako para mangarap, at syempre samahan ako para buoin ang mga pangarap na yon... hindi ako magsasawa na magpasalamat at mahalin ka... hanggang sa panahong haharap na tayo kila boss at nay. =)
KAY JHE at REG.
SA Messiah family.
SA Jr Finex family.
SA mga kaibigan, kaklase, boardmates, kabahay nakasama all throughout that TWENTY YEARS..---- im really glad and BLESSED to know people who taught me to value LIFE more and enjoy it's PRESENT, and to LIFE life, to share more, inspire more and most especially LOVE more.
SIMPLE things goes like the most appreciated thing in this world. Simple act of it will make you realize you're most worthy to be YOU. (worth to be understood, appreciated and Loved). People most of the time NEED that than other things in the world.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR BEING A GREAT PART TO LET ME FEEL I'M LOVED BY GOD!!!!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
5th Louisian convergence
" conference and leadership training of leaders for . . . . "
__salit eh pero paano at bakit nga ba ako dito nakasama? two days training and seminars sa Bacuit, Bauang, La Union.
september burpdais..
hindi lang ata busog, kundi soooooooobrang busog ako this past few days, except sa mga talagang lakad ko ang dami dami talagang mga chibugan na puntahan at kasama na ang akar dun... hihi..
sa burpdei ko kaya?hmmmm...
iasang sweeeeeet dreams nalang muna. =)
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
wala.. (huppee berdei sa isang unggoi)
"madaling maghanap ng wala... mahirap maghanap ng meron.."
"magandang marealize din natin kung gaano nga ba tayo ka blessed, dahil may mga mas maliit na tao pa na humihiling na sana nandyan sila sa pwesto mo ngayon.."
--nakakamove na statements galing sa bertdei celebrant... kagabi. haaay, pang EIC talaga ng "buttress" hehehe. well, nasabi ko nalnag sa sarili koi, oo nga noh.. may nalaki siyang punto dun..tama. one thing more, isa siyang perfect example of a person ng taong na strive mag move on... tama ulit un (it reminded me of my self kung gaano kasi ako katangang umasa sa wala... dibale.. bitter to better. =)
more for kuya James!
cheers!
"magandang marealize din natin kung gaano nga ba tayo ka blessed, dahil may mga mas maliit na tao pa na humihiling na sana nandyan sila sa pwesto mo ngayon.."
--nakakamove na statements galing sa bertdei celebrant... kagabi. haaay, pang EIC talaga ng "buttress" hehehe. well, nasabi ko nalnag sa sarili koi, oo nga noh.. may nalaki siyang punto dun..tama. one thing more, isa siyang perfect example of a person ng taong na strive mag move on... tama ulit un (it reminded me of my self kung gaano kasi ako katangang umasa sa wala... dibale.. bitter to better. =)
more for kuya James!
cheers!
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
t s i n e l a s
napaisip ako isang arw nung naikwento sa akin yung tungkol sa isang estudyante na tinanong kung papapiliin siya ng isang bagay para ihalintulad yung sarili niya..
"tsinelas.."
ano nga naman yun sa nga bagay diba na hindi mo nga namn talaga maiisip..
pero napaisip ako dun sabay tanong "bakit daw?"
-- dahil nabubuhay siya ng may kapareha --
oo nga noh. tama naman siya, hindi sa lahat ng oras at panahon kailangan ka lang matutuo sa sarili mo.. kadalasan natutuo ka sa mga pinagdadaanan mo.. kasama ang mga tao sa paligid mo.. hindi ka din magiging ganyan ngayon kundi ka tinuruan, minahal at sinaktan ng mga tao... pati ang pagiging matatag dahil sa kanila din... para ngang halos ata lahat na ng bagay sa mundo eh... siguro isa sa napakahalang dapat ipaalala sa nito yung "sa kahit anong gawin mo, kahit san ka man mapunta.. masasabi mo parin sa sarili mo na...
hindi ka parin nag iisa"
to love or to be loved?
To love or be loved
By Cherie Ann Lo
Inquirer
Last updated 00:22am (Mla time) 09/25/2007
OUR TEACHER in philosophy once asked our class whether it is harder to love or to be loved. I did not have a clue on how to answer the question, but I took it to heart. After a few bottles of cheap wine and nights spent until dawn, the question gained contour. But instead of finding an answer, the first thing that came to my mind was another question: What is to love?
I am not entirely sure if what I have arrived at is true, given the limited experiences I have. The only thing I am sure of is that love entails some letting go. It is allowing the other to grow, to pursue his happiness even if that pursuit does not include my own. Love keeps one happy with the thought that the one you let go will be happy, even if it means being without him. As Marcel would put it, "To love anybody is to expect something from him, something which can neither be defined nor foreseen; it is at the same time in some way to make it possible for him to fulfill this expectation." In setting him free, the only expectation I can hold now is that he will be happy. But it is by letting go that I can give him the possibility of being happy.
Even without this other person, loving transforms life into living. Love puts action into life. Life is not life when lived in passivity. Life becomes dynamic when one loves. Love colors the boredom that the routine of life brings. Breathing is no longer just for the purpose of keeping the self alive, it becomes living for the loved one.
Is loving the same as having? It is not. If I claim ownership of someone, he will not be the same person I loved when he was not my possession. Owning something is the same as personalizing it. If an object is personalized, it loses its character. It becomes a reflection of the self. When this happens, then what I love is myself, not the other.
Having someone makes it so much harder to let him go. But if one just loves with respect for the other person, then letting go becomes less difficult. It will never be easy, because there will always be a desire to have that person. Maybe it's human nature to be greedy and to want what one loves. But in the course of having, love disappears.
So loving someone is hard. It seems to be having but it is not. It is a conscious action so that it is not allowed to turn into ownership. It is a giving in to one's very nature, to one's desire to want the best for the loved one. But at the same time, it also entails some control over one's natural impulse to own.
But what is it to be loved? I believe that being loved entails utmost patience. Being loved is an act based on the other person. It is hard in the sense that one cannot control how the other loves. It is like having a stranger hold one's hand. There is fear that this person will lead one to an unknown place. There is apprehension that it will into a grasp. What if he does not let go? The only thing that can loosen this grasp is time.
Patiently waiting for time to knock some sense into the other or the self is probably one of life's hardest tasks. Time stretches into infinity when one is holding on to someone even if it is not reciprocated. There is again this notion that one can have this person but the truth is, one can never have him or anyone else for that matter.
Is it not hard to know that a person does not love you the way you want him to? It is one of life's greatest tensions: the incongruence between how one is being loved and how one loves. To be loved is also hard because it involves acknowledging the possibility that one can never control how the other person loves. It involves an uncertainty which can condense into fear.
So which is harder between loving and being loved? I still haven't come to a conclusion. The intensity by which love impacts a person can make everything both easy and hard. To love someone makes it easier to live, but at the same time, life can be harder because that someone can never be owned. To be loved entails patience which forms character. But it also involves a fear, an uncertainty.
The more important question is, will love ever be easy? I want to believe it is, but life proves otherwise.
Cherie Ann Lo, 20, is a BS Psychology senior at the Ateneo de Manila University.
Copyright 2007 Inquirer. All rights reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or redistributed.
--right. it will never be a very good question to answer with easy or not.. I think it both requires giving of oneself.. to open the possibilities and risks to be happy or not... at the end of the day it's how huch they appreciate and how much YOU TRULY loved that matters... =)
By Cherie Ann Lo
Inquirer
Last updated 00:22am (Mla time) 09/25/2007
OUR TEACHER in philosophy once asked our class whether it is harder to love or to be loved. I did not have a clue on how to answer the question, but I took it to heart. After a few bottles of cheap wine and nights spent until dawn, the question gained contour. But instead of finding an answer, the first thing that came to my mind was another question: What is to love?
I am not entirely sure if what I have arrived at is true, given the limited experiences I have. The only thing I am sure of is that love entails some letting go. It is allowing the other to grow, to pursue his happiness even if that pursuit does not include my own. Love keeps one happy with the thought that the one you let go will be happy, even if it means being without him. As Marcel would put it, "To love anybody is to expect something from him, something which can neither be defined nor foreseen; it is at the same time in some way to make it possible for him to fulfill this expectation." In setting him free, the only expectation I can hold now is that he will be happy. But it is by letting go that I can give him the possibility of being happy.
Even without this other person, loving transforms life into living. Love puts action into life. Life is not life when lived in passivity. Life becomes dynamic when one loves. Love colors the boredom that the routine of life brings. Breathing is no longer just for the purpose of keeping the self alive, it becomes living for the loved one.
Is loving the same as having? It is not. If I claim ownership of someone, he will not be the same person I loved when he was not my possession. Owning something is the same as personalizing it. If an object is personalized, it loses its character. It becomes a reflection of the self. When this happens, then what I love is myself, not the other.
Having someone makes it so much harder to let him go. But if one just loves with respect for the other person, then letting go becomes less difficult. It will never be easy, because there will always be a desire to have that person. Maybe it's human nature to be greedy and to want what one loves. But in the course of having, love disappears.
So loving someone is hard. It seems to be having but it is not. It is a conscious action so that it is not allowed to turn into ownership. It is a giving in to one's very nature, to one's desire to want the best for the loved one. But at the same time, it also entails some control over one's natural impulse to own.
But what is it to be loved? I believe that being loved entails utmost patience. Being loved is an act based on the other person. It is hard in the sense that one cannot control how the other loves. It is like having a stranger hold one's hand. There is fear that this person will lead one to an unknown place. There is apprehension that it will into a grasp. What if he does not let go? The only thing that can loosen this grasp is time.
Patiently waiting for time to knock some sense into the other or the self is probably one of life's hardest tasks. Time stretches into infinity when one is holding on to someone even if it is not reciprocated. There is again this notion that one can have this person but the truth is, one can never have him or anyone else for that matter.
Is it not hard to know that a person does not love you the way you want him to? It is one of life's greatest tensions: the incongruence between how one is being loved and how one loves. To be loved is also hard because it involves acknowledging the possibility that one can never control how the other person loves. It involves an uncertainty which can condense into fear.
So which is harder between loving and being loved? I still haven't come to a conclusion. The intensity by which love impacts a person can make everything both easy and hard. To love someone makes it easier to live, but at the same time, life can be harder because that someone can never be owned. To be loved entails patience which forms character. But it also involves a fear, an uncertainty.
The more important question is, will love ever be easy? I want to believe it is, but life proves otherwise.
Cherie Ann Lo, 20, is a BS Psychology senior at the Ateneo de Manila University.
Copyright 2007 Inquirer. All rights reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or redistributed.
--right. it will never be a very good question to answer with easy or not.. I think it both requires giving of oneself.. to open the possibilities and risks to be happy or not... at the end of the day it's how huch they appreciate and how much YOU TRULY loved that matters... =)
Thursday, August 06, 2009
kalokohan =)
-- bibe.
sino nga ba 'to? hahaha. isang malaking kalokohan kami. . kalokohan lang kung paano talaga nagsimula lahat, alam mo yun, ni hindi ko man lang inisip na darating sa puntong kami ngaun. At hindi ko din kasi inasahan na may darating na katulad niya sa buhay ko... yung tipong papangitiin ang puso mo lagi, weeeh, ang chezzy. pero syempre tulad ng lahat ng relasyon, nag aaway din kami, lagi? at siya ang nasasaktan (phisically, hehe.. ang sakit ko kasing manampal eh..). Siguro at the end of the day, itong kalokohan nato yung isa sa pinaka seryoso kong naging desisyon ngaung taon... simple lang, dahil naging malaki na siyang parte ng maliit kong buhay. Marami akong natutunan, at higit sa lahat marami akong pangarap na nabubuo. Syempre dahil sa KAnYa.
Kalahating taon, kumusta ba ako?
Masaya. oo, eto, hindi ako kailangan tumawa para malaman mong masaya ako, siguro malamang kilala mo ako... panatag lang yung loob ko na isang araw lahat nga mga pangarap ko natutupad din kasama ang mga taong malapit sa puso ko. Marami pa man akong tatahakin at kakaining bigas, kakayanin ko 'to dahil sa kanila at para sa kanila.
---wala lang. ano pa nga ba ang pwede kong sabihin sa kalokohang 'to.
magulo.
masaya.
makulit.
maingay?
mapagbigay.
mainit.
malamig!
mapagmahal.
at higit sa lahat MASAYA! Smile
ano nga ba?
paano?
bakit?
ewan ko din...
hindi mo pa ba nasubukan tanungin sarili mo?
kung hindi pa, di subukan mo ngayon..
kung natanong mo na, siguro hindi mo parin alam ang sagot...
ano nga bang dapat itanong?
"bakit nga ba niya ako mahal?"
---kailangan nga ba talagang itanong yon?
ewan ko nga din eh... pero diba "hindi ka naman bibigyan ni boss ng isang bagay na hindi ka karapatdapat, oh kung hindi man, siguro bingigay niya yon sa'yo para maging karapat dapat ka..."
ang lalim ata nun. (hihihi)pero totoo.
---"i think everything could work in a growing process.."
dba? you're helping each other to face life's reality...you're helping each other to be a better HIM because he also taught you to be one.
---ang simple, ang lalim, pero ang gandah...
kalokohan man pero ito yun eh...hmmm. alam mo yun.
at, at the end of the day magiging masaya parin ako dahil parte ka ng buhay KO. at I'M BLESSED TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE Smile
sino nga ba 'to? hahaha. isang malaking kalokohan kami. . kalokohan lang kung paano talaga nagsimula lahat, alam mo yun, ni hindi ko man lang inisip na darating sa puntong kami ngaun. At hindi ko din kasi inasahan na may darating na katulad niya sa buhay ko... yung tipong papangitiin ang puso mo lagi, weeeh, ang chezzy. pero syempre tulad ng lahat ng relasyon, nag aaway din kami, lagi? at siya ang nasasaktan (phisically, hehe.. ang sakit ko kasing manampal eh..). Siguro at the end of the day, itong kalokohan nato yung isa sa pinaka seryoso kong naging desisyon ngaung taon... simple lang, dahil naging malaki na siyang parte ng maliit kong buhay. Marami akong natutunan, at higit sa lahat marami akong pangarap na nabubuo. Syempre dahil sa KAnYa.
Kalahating taon, kumusta ba ako?
Masaya. oo, eto, hindi ako kailangan tumawa para malaman mong masaya ako, siguro malamang kilala mo ako... panatag lang yung loob ko na isang araw lahat nga mga pangarap ko natutupad din kasama ang mga taong malapit sa puso ko. Marami pa man akong tatahakin at kakaining bigas, kakayanin ko 'to dahil sa kanila at para sa kanila.
---wala lang. ano pa nga ba ang pwede kong sabihin sa kalokohang 'to.
magulo.
masaya.
makulit.
maingay?
mapagbigay.
mainit.
malamig!
mapagmahal.
at higit sa lahat MASAYA! Smile
ano nga ba?
paano?
bakit?
ewan ko din...
hindi mo pa ba nasubukan tanungin sarili mo?
kung hindi pa, di subukan mo ngayon..
kung natanong mo na, siguro hindi mo parin alam ang sagot...
ano nga bang dapat itanong?
"bakit nga ba niya ako mahal?"
---kailangan nga ba talagang itanong yon?
ewan ko nga din eh... pero diba "hindi ka naman bibigyan ni boss ng isang bagay na hindi ka karapatdapat, oh kung hindi man, siguro bingigay niya yon sa'yo para maging karapat dapat ka..."
ang lalim ata nun. (hihihi)pero totoo.
---"i think everything could work in a growing process.."
dba? you're helping each other to face life's reality...you're helping each other to be a better HIM because he also taught you to be one.
---ang simple, ang lalim, pero ang gandah...
kalokohan man pero ito yun eh...hmmm. alam mo yun.
at, at the end of the day magiging masaya parin ako dahil parte ka ng buhay KO. at I'M BLESSED TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE Smile
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
50 ideas i want to write about
50 Writing Ideas I Couldn’t Find on Another List
by Frank Gilroy
in personal
1. Send out a twitter asking for a random word to write a post about.
2. Google your name, find somebody that isn’t you, and write about them.
3. Find two experts in a field and start an argument between them.
4. Write a letter of resignation for a job you don’t have.
5. Write a resume cover letter for a job you have no chance of getting.
6. Re-write a great speech from history like the Gettysburg Address.
7. Write a letter to yourself in the future.
8. Write a letter to yourself in the past.
9. Write a letter to a son or daughter you don’t have.
10. Write a letter to an extra terrestrial.
11. Write a review of a book that hasn’t been written.
12. Write a review of a movie that hasn’t been made.
13. Write a review of a product that hasn’t been developed.
14. Write a travel review of a place you haven’t visited.
15. Write yourself a spam e-mail.
16. Write yourself a sales letter for a product you’d never buy.
17. Write a lawyers closing arguments.
18. Write a judges dissent.
19. Write a new book or chapter for your favorite religious text.
20. Write a political campaign victory speech
21. Write a political campaign consolation speech.
22. Write a speech abdicating an office.
23. Write a script for a motivational video.
24. Write a script for a commercial.
25. Write a script for an infomercial.
26. Write a jingle for your blog.
27. Write a poem without making it rhyme.
28. Write a monologue for a late night talk show.
29. Write an award acceptance speech.
30. Write a toast for a wedding you crashed.
31. Roast a celebrity or expert in your niche.
32. Write a story on the opening of a time capsule.
33. Write a post in a language you don’t speak.
34. Write a letter to a stranger in a foreign land.
35. Open the yellow pages, point to an ad and review the company.
36. Write a commentary on something from CSPAN.
37. Write a review on an obscure piece of software you use only at work.
38. Write a script for a news cast.
39. Write a synopsis of a sporting event.
40. Heckle a fashion show or beauty contest.
41. Write an award citation.
42. Write your own performance appraisal.
43. Write your bosses performance appraisal.
44. Write a greeting card.
45. Write a service level agreement for your readers.
46. Write a statement of work for a blog.
47. Write a business plan for your site.
48. Write an acceptance speech if you were elected President. ( edited)
49. Write a script for a video game.
50. Write your own eulogy.
--nice. if i have time i start one =)
by Frank Gilroy
in personal
1. Send out a twitter asking for a random word to write a post about.
2. Google your name, find somebody that isn’t you, and write about them.
3. Find two experts in a field and start an argument between them.
4. Write a letter of resignation for a job you don’t have.
5. Write a resume cover letter for a job you have no chance of getting.
6. Re-write a great speech from history like the Gettysburg Address.
7. Write a letter to yourself in the future.
8. Write a letter to yourself in the past.
9. Write a letter to a son or daughter you don’t have.
10. Write a letter to an extra terrestrial.
11. Write a review of a book that hasn’t been written.
12. Write a review of a movie that hasn’t been made.
13. Write a review of a product that hasn’t been developed.
14. Write a travel review of a place you haven’t visited.
15. Write yourself a spam e-mail.
16. Write yourself a sales letter for a product you’d never buy.
17. Write a lawyers closing arguments.
18. Write a judges dissent.
19. Write a new book or chapter for your favorite religious text.
20. Write a political campaign victory speech
21. Write a political campaign consolation speech.
22. Write a speech abdicating an office.
23. Write a script for a motivational video.
24. Write a script for a commercial.
25. Write a script for an infomercial.
26. Write a jingle for your blog.
27. Write a poem without making it rhyme.
28. Write a monologue for a late night talk show.
29. Write an award acceptance speech.
30. Write a toast for a wedding you crashed.
31. Roast a celebrity or expert in your niche.
32. Write a story on the opening of a time capsule.
33. Write a post in a language you don’t speak.
34. Write a letter to a stranger in a foreign land.
35. Open the yellow pages, point to an ad and review the company.
36. Write a commentary on something from CSPAN.
37. Write a review on an obscure piece of software you use only at work.
38. Write a script for a news cast.
39. Write a synopsis of a sporting event.
40. Heckle a fashion show or beauty contest.
41. Write an award citation.
42. Write your own performance appraisal.
43. Write your bosses performance appraisal.
44. Write a greeting card.
45. Write a service level agreement for your readers.
46. Write a statement of work for a blog.
47. Write a business plan for your site.
48. Write an acceptance speech if you were elected President. ( edited)
49. Write a script for a video game.
50. Write your own eulogy.
--nice. if i have time i start one =)
Thursday, July 30, 2009
buhay nga naman....
nakakalungkot,
nakakaiyak,
nakakapanghinayang pero ganun talaga ang buhay..
"we can never know what will happen next"
--ang bata pa niya. Marie. naging ading2 ko siya for a while... wala lang napakagaganda ng mga memories ko with her.. siguro never ko siyang maalala na malumgkot.. dahil all the time tawanan lang, asaran, at siya pa yung kawawa..
grabeh.. buhay na buhay parin siya pang naalala ko,
ako na kumakain ng fries niya na kfc. hehehe. hmmmm, wala lang. yun ata yung last time hna nandun din sya sa apt nila domz.
sobrang mamimiss niya yung mga kuya niya.. hmmm, parang bakasyon lang eh.. sembreak.
one day, darating din tayo dun sa panahon na yun.. in his time.
--nakakalungkot man isipin, yun ang buhay eh... and everything has its own purpose... mawala si marie, pero there will be more to come.. alam ko babantayan niya naman tayo eh..
but for now she has to rest.
nakakaiyak,
nakakapanghinayang pero ganun talaga ang buhay..
"we can never know what will happen next"
--ang bata pa niya. Marie. naging ading2 ko siya for a while... wala lang napakagaganda ng mga memories ko with her.. siguro never ko siyang maalala na malumgkot.. dahil all the time tawanan lang, asaran, at siya pa yung kawawa..
grabeh.. buhay na buhay parin siya pang naalala ko,
ako na kumakain ng fries niya na kfc. hehehe. hmmmm, wala lang. yun ata yung last time hna nandun din sya sa apt nila domz.
sobrang mamimiss niya yung mga kuya niya.. hmmm, parang bakasyon lang eh.. sembreak.
one day, darating din tayo dun sa panahon na yun.. in his time.
--nakakalungkot man isipin, yun ang buhay eh... and everything has its own purpose... mawala si marie, pero there will be more to come.. alam ko babantayan niya naman tayo eh..
but for now she has to rest.
Friday, July 24, 2009
3rd day-- prelim exams
toxic day!
--haaay, soobrang toxic, i slept 2:30 am... nag review at sa kaba sa mga exams ko this day hinmdi agad ako nakatulog, hmmmm... kinareer eh, worth it ba? hmmmmmmm. let's see.. sa financial derivatives, keri lang naman... sa tax, mindbleed hindi lang nose bleed eh.. i hope makapasa ako dun, =( i want to graduate ah... hehehe, ayan ako ang hindi makaget over sa exams ko, i did my best! yun ang importante... ang magiging problema nalang if my best was'nt good enough.
aun lang. napadaan para maglabas ng galit... hihi. ayan, makikikant muna ako sa chapel at makikigulo sa messiah.
Monday, July 20, 2009
circles of love
"what matters most is that you loved at all.."
--kada maririnig ko 'tong kantang 'to iba parin yung feeling..
Last weekend, nabuhay ako sa pagging YE faci, session ko , circles. sabi nila, mahirap, madali... lahat na. pero ito parin ang one of the best part of the encounter. (ayyeeeeee). after mga four years na hindi na ako nagtatalk, puro observe2 lang... eto, sabi ni kuya daryl, "im really really better, nakita mo naman kung paano umiyak yung mga participants mo diba, its a sign na natouch sila.."
sobrang nakakaoverwhelmed. yung tipong eto yun, habang nasa harap ka at naririnig mo yung yung hinaing ng bawat kabataan na nandun, mararamdaman mo how blessed you are, sa buhay mo. ang galing. ang saya, this is really one of the great YE.
"keep loving"
july 15
"i made him happy on his birthday"
--nice to know that!
syempre he became a big part of who i am now... no regrets of loving him in the past i know that he is really one of the most effective person in the world, maybe (just maybe) not in my heart.
better to know na ok kami ngaun, kahit magkaibigan... sana ganito nalang.
Sabi ko nga i will be more happy to see him happy. hhmmm =)
"thank you very much.. stay that person who taught me how to really love."
--nice to know that!
syempre he became a big part of who i am now... no regrets of loving him in the past i know that he is really one of the most effective person in the world, maybe (just maybe) not in my heart.
better to know na ok kami ngaun, kahit magkaibigan... sana ganito nalang.
Sabi ko nga i will be more happy to see him happy. hhmmm =)
"thank you very much.. stay that person who taught me how to really love."
Thursday, July 09, 2009
may sakit si pot- pot.. :-(
masakit ulo ko,
masakit katawan ko...
unuulan ng malakas, at wala akong payong..
hindi ko makasama sa paglabas, hindi din ako makaakar o kain man lang sa labas... hay naku kung alam mo lang "i'm really disabled"
bakit nga ba kasi of all days ngayon pa ako nagkasakit ahhh...?
isssh.
balak pala niyang mgcelebrate sa john hay.
well, this is life...
and i know this will pass...
happy 4th monthsari.
masakit katawan ko...
unuulan ng malakas, at wala akong payong..
hindi ko makasama sa paglabas, hindi din ako makaakar o kain man lang sa labas... hay naku kung alam mo lang "i'm really disabled"
bakit nga ba kasi of all days ngayon pa ako nagkasakit ahhh...?
isssh.
balak pala niyang mgcelebrate sa john hay.
well, this is life...
and i know this will pass...
happy 4th monthsari.
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
july 1
kalahati na ng 2009.
tulad ngaung araw, masakit sa ulo, maraming ginawa.. pero eto syempre hindi parin tapos ang araw... ano pa nga bang mga susunod na mangyayari? hmmm, uuwi, natutulog at mag aaral, hay!
parang nakakabagot na buhay noh? eto na naman kasi akong parang wala na namang mapatutunguan eh, hay!
kalahating taon!
ano nga bang mga nagyari sa akin?
-- 4th year na ako.
hehe. pero mukhang bata parin ah.. walang duda. bleh! eto, sumasakit ang ulo dahil ewan ko nga ba? baka may h1n1 ako.. issh, wag naman sana. eta, maraming subjects na nose bleed.. maraming mga organizations at affiliations sa buhay.. maraming kailangan gawin.. bakit ko nga ba ginustong maging busy noh? dahil noon eh mababaliw na ako, paranoid ba sa sarili. hehehe. pero ngaun naman halos hilingin ko nalang na sana may 26 na oras ang isang araw eh. Kahit gaano man ang mga 'to, im surviving pa naman.
-- bibe.
sino nga ba 'to? hahaha. isang malaking kalokohan kami. . kalokohan lang kung paano talaga nagsimula lahat, alam mo yun, ni hindi ko man lang inisip na darating sa puntong kami ngaun. At hindi ko din kasi inasahan na may darating na katulad niya sa buhay ko... yung tipong papangitiin ang puso mo lagi, weeeh, ang chezzy. pero syempre tulad ng lahat ng relasyon, nag aaway din kami, lagi? at siya ang nasasaktan (phisically, hehe.. ang sakit ko kasing manampal eh..). Siguro at the end of the day, itong kalokohan nato yung isa sa pinaka seryoso kong naging desisyon ngaung taon... simple lang, dahil naging malaki na siyang parte ng maliit kong buhay. Marami akong natutunan, at higit sa lahat marami akong pangarap na nabubuo. Syempre dahil sa KAnYa.
Kalahating taon, kumusta ba ako?
Masaya. oo, eto, hindi ako kailangan tumawa para malaman mong masaya ako, siguro malamang kilala mo ako... panatag lang yung loob ko na isang araw lahat nga mga pangarap ko natutupad din kasama ang mga taong malapit sa puso ko. Marami pa man akong tatahakin at kakaining bigas, kakayanin ko 'to dahil sa kanila at para sa kanila.
(napakadrama ko naman para gumawa ng ganito, baka nawawala na naman ako at hinahanap nila, weh, wala naman nakakaalam kung asan nga ba ako., andito lang ako sa tabi nag iisip kung tama nga ba kung nasan ako ngayon?)
tulad ngaung araw, masakit sa ulo, maraming ginawa.. pero eto syempre hindi parin tapos ang araw... ano pa nga bang mga susunod na mangyayari? hmmm, uuwi, natutulog at mag aaral, hay!
parang nakakabagot na buhay noh? eto na naman kasi akong parang wala na namang mapatutunguan eh, hay!
kalahating taon!
ano nga bang mga nagyari sa akin?
-- 4th year na ako.
hehe. pero mukhang bata parin ah.. walang duda. bleh! eto, sumasakit ang ulo dahil ewan ko nga ba? baka may h1n1 ako.. issh, wag naman sana. eta, maraming subjects na nose bleed.. maraming mga organizations at affiliations sa buhay.. maraming kailangan gawin.. bakit ko nga ba ginustong maging busy noh? dahil noon eh mababaliw na ako, paranoid ba sa sarili. hehehe. pero ngaun naman halos hilingin ko nalang na sana may 26 na oras ang isang araw eh. Kahit gaano man ang mga 'to, im surviving pa naman.
-- bibe.
sino nga ba 'to? hahaha. isang malaking kalokohan kami. . kalokohan lang kung paano talaga nagsimula lahat, alam mo yun, ni hindi ko man lang inisip na darating sa puntong kami ngaun. At hindi ko din kasi inasahan na may darating na katulad niya sa buhay ko... yung tipong papangitiin ang puso mo lagi, weeeh, ang chezzy. pero syempre tulad ng lahat ng relasyon, nag aaway din kami, lagi? at siya ang nasasaktan (phisically, hehe.. ang sakit ko kasing manampal eh..). Siguro at the end of the day, itong kalokohan nato yung isa sa pinaka seryoso kong naging desisyon ngaung taon... simple lang, dahil naging malaki na siyang parte ng maliit kong buhay. Marami akong natutunan, at higit sa lahat marami akong pangarap na nabubuo. Syempre dahil sa KAnYa.
Kalahating taon, kumusta ba ako?
Masaya. oo, eto, hindi ako kailangan tumawa para malaman mong masaya ako, siguro malamang kilala mo ako... panatag lang yung loob ko na isang araw lahat nga mga pangarap ko natutupad din kasama ang mga taong malapit sa puso ko. Marami pa man akong tatahakin at kakaining bigas, kakayanin ko 'to dahil sa kanila at para sa kanila.
(napakadrama ko naman para gumawa ng ganito, baka nawawala na naman ako at hinahanap nila, weh, wala naman nakakaalam kung asan nga ba ako., andito lang ako sa tabi nag iisip kung tama nga ba kung nasan ako ngayon?)
Monday, June 29, 2009
mE?
"if there would be something you should believe that should be YOURSELF."
so true! pero, im having a hard time doing that (minsan)... bakit nga ba kasi sa lahat ng bagay na gagawin ko wala akong tiwala sa sarili ko noh? bubu. hehehe. hay! bakit nga ba ako ganun? eh, hindi ko rin alam... siguro all these time im putting myself down? feeling ko kasi all the time mali din lang ung mga magagawa ko... hay! I should really work on this.. makakamatay.
so true! pero, im having a hard time doing that (minsan)... bakit nga ba kasi sa lahat ng bagay na gagawin ko wala akong tiwala sa sarili ko noh? bubu. hehehe. hay! bakit nga ba ako ganun? eh, hindi ko rin alam... siguro all these time im putting myself down? feeling ko kasi all the time mali din lang ung mga magagawa ko... hay! I should really work on this.. makakamatay.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
it's that just it made me realize....
simple.
-- wala lang hindi mo naman kasi kailangan ng kahit anong material na bagay para sumaya... it's just that kailangan mong marealize lahat nang mga blessings na nasa paligid mo.. soo great makakaamaze parin. sa dahilan at paraang hindi mo parin alam, hmmmmm... alam mo un hindi man lahat lahat ng mga sagot sa tanong mo sa mundo masagot, ang importante sa tingin ko eh ung kung paano mo parin hinahanap ng maayos yung sarili mo sa mga bagay na eto nasayo ngaun, siguro hindi ko makakalimutan ung sinasabi ng instructor namin na(hindi kailangang hanapin ung mga bagay na wala sayo, dapat kang masanay na wala talaga yon, dahil in reality HINDI maibibigay sayo yun). Galing lang, isang malaking OO dun, bakit ka nga naman hahanap ng mga bagay na wala sayo, kung pwede ka naman tumingin sa paligid mo...malay mo diba?
alam mo yun all these time parang, eto ang SIMPLE lang ng buhay eh, hindi mo kailangan ng maraming bagay para sumaya, siguro kailangan mo lang ng
... isang mapang unawang utak
...isang bukas na isip
...isang SIMPLEng puso at
...mga taong bubuksan ang mga mga mata mo sa bagay2 na kailangan mong makita.
hindi mo naman kailangan masabi lahat nang nararamdaman mo eh, siguro mapadama at mapatunayan mong oo eto alam ko at kaya MO.
-- wala lang hindi mo naman kasi kailangan ng kahit anong material na bagay para sumaya... it's just that kailangan mong marealize lahat nang mga blessings na nasa paligid mo.. soo great makakaamaze parin. sa dahilan at paraang hindi mo parin alam, hmmmmm... alam mo un hindi man lahat lahat ng mga sagot sa tanong mo sa mundo masagot, ang importante sa tingin ko eh ung kung paano mo parin hinahanap ng maayos yung sarili mo sa mga bagay na eto nasayo ngaun, siguro hindi ko makakalimutan ung sinasabi ng instructor namin na(hindi kailangang hanapin ung mga bagay na wala sayo, dapat kang masanay na wala talaga yon, dahil in reality HINDI maibibigay sayo yun). Galing lang, isang malaking OO dun, bakit ka nga naman hahanap ng mga bagay na wala sayo, kung pwede ka naman tumingin sa paligid mo...malay mo diba?
alam mo yun all these time parang, eto ang SIMPLE lang ng buhay eh, hindi mo kailangan ng maraming bagay para sumaya, siguro kailangan mo lang ng
... isang mapang unawang utak
...isang bukas na isip
...isang SIMPLEng puso at
...mga taong bubuksan ang mga mga mata mo sa bagay2 na kailangan mong makita.
hindi mo naman kailangan masabi lahat nang nararamdaman mo eh, siguro mapadama at mapatunayan mong oo eto alam ko at kaya MO.
Friday, April 24, 2009
TOXIC summer!!!!!!!
FINMAN.waaaaaaaah! TOXIC talaga ang best word to describe summer class. TATLONG major, na hindi ko na alam kung paano magdescribe sa kanila. Sa ngaun, masakit parin ang ulo ko dahil sa information overload na ata 'to, mula umaga hanganng gabi ba naman eh. Hay! napakaraming quizes, homework at researches.. sa bagay eto naman ang pinili namin subject. pagkatapos ng lahat... isa nalang masasabi ko.. "kakayanin!" --kasi naman pag lalo mo pang ilalaglag sarili mo wala na ah.
"laging makontento kung ano ung na sa'yo... wag kang maghanap ng wala dahil sa reality hindi naman nila maibibigay lahat ng kailangan mo"
-laging sinasabi ni mam beth
PAST.
"you'll only realize MORE the worth of a person when they are gore on your own grasp.."
"when THEY are ready to LOVE you again,,,, it will also be the TIME that youre already READY to let them GO"
--pareho lang SILA. hmmmm, alam mo un I don't really know what to react, tama nga ung instinct ko na mahal pa nila kami? hmmmm, di ako nagkamali akalain mo.. nakakatawang isipin na sa panahong un pinapakita nila na THEY MOVED on, pero pag nakita nila KAMIng masaya, magmamahal ulit, nasasaktan SILA. tama si dom, we have our own lives now... sabi ko nga sa sarili ko... "We've given them the chance, the time, the power to love us back pero anong ginawa nila.. WALA. ahm, not all the time nasau lahat ng bagay na gusto mo eh,... marerealize mo un. Tska, ewan ko ba basta ngaun at the end of everything THANK YOU. kay kleng at kay ley... for making US especially ME a really better person, for loving me, making me cry and making me happy... they will always and forever be a part of me. siguro without them I may not be able to love again. sana lang in the long run, wag niya, nila, ninyo akong kamuhian (ang deep!) for doing such..dahil THEY not US chose to be free... sana lang they should never be BITTER about LIFE and LOVE.
--ako ngayon? hmmm.. sakto, kinakaya ang buhay na alam kong di madali. hindi sobrang saya, hindi din malungkot. dati natatakoy akong maging sobrang saya dahil alam kong kinabukasan iiyak na naman ako ng sobra. pero hindi pala un maiiwasan, hindi mo naman pwedeng sabihin sa BUHAY na wag ka niyang saktan eh, na sa sayo pala yan, kung paano ka mababago ng mga mapapagdaan mo, dahil hindi habang buhay andyan ka sa pwesto mo ngayon, magbabago at magbabago pero kasama nun yung mga paniniwala at higit sa lahat ang mga pangarap mo.
"kakayanin 'to"
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
speechless____
don't know how to really start this kind of things that I want to really write.. but then.. ahmmmm.... maybe at this point in time I could just sit around the corner and just smile. ",
" don't exhaust your heart trying to look for the one you think you deserve, instead you should save the best part of yourself for the person who deserves you-- someone who CAME, the time you didn't search"
--being HAPPY, is one of the state that as of that moment I'm really scared to feel, some kinda weird but to really think I have my one reason--- that yes, I will be happy now but still I will again be sad, worst I will be sad for the same reasons.
Sometimes, it's just really magical to think and believe that I'm happy despite the fact that I'm afraid to be. Now, honestly I don't know the right words and expression that I should have.
HE just bring out ME that was hiding, shattered and destroyed by my emotions.
HE became the chanel and the response to be ME again.
HE was around to made me smile.
HE is by my side to simply love me as I am.
HE was not a mere dream come true but,
HE will be the person that will be with ME in doing my dreams.
HE was never be a boy that ever turned my head but,
HE is the guy that turned my heart again.
HE was never perfect but,
HE will be with me to face life's imperfections.
HE may be same typical person but I can prove that
HE is not assuring me that he will never hurt me but
HE is making me realize that the very simple things my heart longs to feel
...appreciated
...accepted
...loved.
I didn't really told you what I was trying to say. I hope that my heart even spoke to YOU. =)
" don't exhaust your heart trying to look for the one you think you deserve, instead you should save the best part of yourself for the person who deserves you-- someone who CAME, the time you didn't search"
--being HAPPY, is one of the state that as of that moment I'm really scared to feel, some kinda weird but to really think I have my one reason--- that yes, I will be happy now but still I will again be sad, worst I will be sad for the same reasons.
Sometimes, it's just really magical to think and believe that I'm happy despite the fact that I'm afraid to be. Now, honestly I don't know the right words and expression that I should have.
HE just bring out ME that was hiding, shattered and destroyed by my emotions.
HE became the chanel and the response to be ME again.
HE was around to made me smile.
HE is by my side to simply love me as I am.
HE was not a mere dream come true but,
HE will be the person that will be with ME in doing my dreams.
HE was never be a boy that ever turned my head but,
HE is the guy that turned my heart again.
HE was never perfect but,
HE will be with me to face life's imperfections.
HE may be same typical person but I can prove that
HE is not assuring me that he will never hurt me but
HE is making me realize that the very simple things my heart longs to feel
...appreciated
...accepted
...loved.
I didn't really told you what I was trying to say. I hope that my heart even spoke to YOU. =)
Saturday, March 28, 2009
stupidity measures
paano ko nga ba dapat simulan 'to..
hindi ko lang alam.. ano nga bang dapat kong gawin, edi wala...
bakit nga ba ako nagkakaganito?
wala naman ako dapat pagmaktulam eh...
(hahaha)
ang weird ko lang talaga noh?
naiintindihan mo ba ako?
oo.
alam kong hindi.
ewan ko lang kung bakit mga ba ako nagkakaganito..
hmmmm,
here i go again...
"i really want to realize my worth over and over again"
--parang tanga lang.. from time to time i see myself worthless..that you're life could be better without me... sino ba naman kasi ako diba? one time, i started asking
"ano nga ba ang gagawin mo pag namatay ako?"
--ang tapang ko naman nagtanong nun.. na kahit ako, takot.
wala lang, ewan ko ba, ano kaya yung kailangan kong gawin to prove my worth kahit minsan...para kasi akong tanga.
gusto ko lang maishare ang aking istupidity..
para maawa ka sa akin..
para maintindihan mo ako?
hindi rin eh..
ano ba...
.. na kahit wala ako sa buhay mo
, may magbabago.
(sooooo emo this past few days, sabi ko nga ewan ko kung bakit ako nagkakaganito... actually wala naman akong problema eh... overall, i'm ok. nababaliw lang talaga ako, i badly need some people to be with me, and those people who will understand me... i mean really understand... i'm different. i'm badly weird. i need people who will make me see life, at its best... )
tama na muna ang ka-aningan.
hindi ko lang alam.. ano nga bang dapat kong gawin, edi wala...
bakit nga ba ako nagkakaganito?
wala naman ako dapat pagmaktulam eh...
(hahaha)
ang weird ko lang talaga noh?
naiintindihan mo ba ako?
oo.
alam kong hindi.
ewan ko lang kung bakit mga ba ako nagkakaganito..
hmmmm,
here i go again...
"i really want to realize my worth over and over again"
--parang tanga lang.. from time to time i see myself worthless..that you're life could be better without me... sino ba naman kasi ako diba? one time, i started asking
"ano nga ba ang gagawin mo pag namatay ako?"
--ang tapang ko naman nagtanong nun.. na kahit ako, takot.
wala lang, ewan ko ba, ano kaya yung kailangan kong gawin to prove my worth kahit minsan...para kasi akong tanga.
gusto ko lang maishare ang aking istupidity..
para maawa ka sa akin..
para maintindihan mo ako?
hindi rin eh..
ano ba...
.. na kahit wala ako sa buhay mo
, may magbabago.
(sooooo emo this past few days, sabi ko nga ewan ko kung bakit ako nagkakaganito... actually wala naman akong problema eh... overall, i'm ok. nababaliw lang talaga ako, i badly need some people to be with me, and those people who will understand me... i mean really understand... i'm different. i'm badly weird. i need people who will make me see life, at its best... )
tama na muna ang ka-aningan.
sem- ender!!! (pinksisters)
bago matapos ang makulay na second sem....
xempre say BYE na naman kami sa aming bhauz sa 13H.. malungkot pero gnun talaga, madami naman masasayang memeries dun eh...
at bago kami maglakwatsa, naglipat muna kami...
SUNDAY, MARCH 22
nagmass sa PINKSISTERS:
actually soobrang aga namin dyan eh, mga 1 hr before the mass kaya, magTRIP muna kami.....
sa condo namin..
parang bakuran talaga namin ohhh..
ayaw talaga naming tumalon eh..
Si FRanCo, Si KaRen, Si DoM, Si KaYcEe.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
panagbenga 09
kumusta nga ba ang naging panagbenga ko? hmmmmmm.. hindi ako tumuloy sa outreach ng JrFinex para mag enjoy dito sa town. No regrets, nag ENJOY ako. honestly, napapagod na kasi ako sa trabaho sa org kaya un.
ang CHATMATES, grabeh ang textmates gone these far, to our grand eyeball the canton party.. *hehehehe. ang saya talaga, ung moments na talagang tawa ka lang ng tawa. sana sa mga susunod na panagbenga makasama ko uli sila.
sa bato, wid dom.. hehehe aun, session in bloom yan.. ayan akar more, hmmmm nindi naman evrynight, hehehehe..
at yan ang mga pangarap namin puntahan na simbahan, we will be there SOON! yea. hehehe.
meet EJ, kapatid ni ron at barz. hehehe anak namin.. tugsh! hehehe.. nakabonding namin nung last day ng session in bloom.. ang cute na bata as in...
ayan ohhh, kuha ni EJ akalain mu ginawa naming photographr ung bata.. hehehehe. magaling!
pic sa bump car.. na walang bumpcar.. hehehe. sooooooooooo cute!
pinaghalo halo.. wasabe.. heheheh Maalat yan! at dahil nanalo ako sa jak en po, si bibe ang naunang tumikim.
(yan ang panagbenga to remember)
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
RE: 030909
"once in my life, i found you and me"
in many ways
i can tel some points about her,
coz i know how a KORINA CARLA goes. .
it sounds like this:
simple
simple
simple
YET WONDERFUL!!
i just love her simply the way she is
those simple moments we are together
laughing times,
talking times
just domz and kc times. .
i really do appreciate how life goes on and on,
and my world with her is the biggest part of it..
aztig lang,,
nakakaamaze lang ang lahat
speechless parin ako,
as u expect, hehe
ganito tlga ang mga unngoi,,hehe
so thankful with what we have
simple yet wonderful
un tau
un ung tandem na KC at DOM!!
galing ni boss,
c KORINA CARLA nga,,
simply her,
simply great!
and that simple ways keep me on loving her..
and of that she also did, simply love me too!!
simple khaycee
simple korina carla
simple koring
simple kc
simple bibe
that's the person
i love most!
cheers!
t h a n k y o u b i b e
i l o v e y o u b i b e!!
in many ways
i can tel some points about her,
coz i know how a KORINA CARLA goes. .
it sounds like this:
simple
simple
simple
YET WONDERFUL!!
i just love her simply the way she is
those simple moments we are together
laughing times,
talking times
just domz and kc times. .
i really do appreciate how life goes on and on,
and my world with her is the biggest part of it..
aztig lang,,
nakakaamaze lang ang lahat
speechless parin ako,
as u expect, hehe
ganito tlga ang mga unngoi,,hehe
so thankful with what we have
simple yet wonderful
un tau
un ung tandem na KC at DOM!!
galing ni boss,
c KORINA CARLA nga,,
simply her,
simply great!
and that simple ways keep me on loving her..
and of that she also did, simply love me too!!
simple khaycee
simple korina carla
simple koring
simple kc
simple bibe
that's the person
i love most!
cheers!
t h a n k y o u b i b e
i l o v e y o u b i b e!!
030909
speechless. speechless. speechless.
i could hardly know, how can can i describe my feeling-- feeling that i know
a time in my life i prayed and hoped for...
a time that hopefully there will come a man that could love for SIMPLY being who i am..
a time that a person will become proud of being with me..
a time that i will feel the care, security and comfort..
a time that i could finally say to God that "this is the person i chose to love"..
a time that finally i could say to myself "this is the kind of love that made me exactly realize how amazing and beautiful life can be".
a time that i could simply define happiness in my heart..
a time that came so unexpectedly, unpredictable.. nothing special..nothing extraordinary..nothing.. it's just that HE came to made me realize that there is life ahead and life is simply more beautiful if i can open my eyes to see how wonderful loving again-- beneath the fear, the people, the unfair reality but cling more on the power of love-- that was truly tested by time.
at this point in time, more than hoping and wishing, i am praying that indeed this is the kind of love, a relationship that i am hoping and praying for, finally.
i could hardly know, how can can i describe my feeling-- feeling that i know
a time in my life i prayed and hoped for...
a time that hopefully there will come a man that could love for SIMPLY being who i am..
a time that a person will become proud of being with me..
a time that i will feel the care, security and comfort..
a time that i could finally say to God that "this is the person i chose to love"..
a time that finally i could say to myself "this is the kind of love that made me exactly realize how amazing and beautiful life can be".
a time that i could simply define happiness in my heart..
a time that came so unexpectedly, unpredictable.. nothing special..nothing extraordinary..nothing.. it's just that HE came to made me realize that there is life ahead and life is simply more beautiful if i can open my eyes to see how wonderful loving again-- beneath the fear, the people, the unfair reality but cling more on the power of love-- that was truly tested by time.
at this point in time, more than hoping and wishing, i am praying that indeed this is the kind of love, a relationship that i am hoping and praying for, finally.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
movie or pizza?
what a question to think about over and over again.
Question that popped out my ming last weekend. I think it doesn't simply involves that thing that I should do that day, but in the deeper sense of who are the people who are involved in my life.
movie or pizza?
Question that makes me think twice, what I should really do. It's like asking to yourself.. "which do you prefer past, present or future" And your answer does not depend on your brother, your close friend, to the special persons around you but to YOURSELF.
why? because think your answers rely on your own hands.. as they say if you want things to happen you can have ways of of doing so.. if don't want them to happen, you also have reasons of doing so..
it BOTH made me HAPPY.. but in two different time.
it BOTH made me confused.. because they are coming at the same TIME.
but most of all,
it BOTH made me feel, that indeed!
I'm LOVED.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
PUERTO adventures
Umuwi ng pangasinan yun lang talaga ung plano.. umuwi ng magkasabay, (hehehe)
kasi naman long weekend na soobrang bihira lang talaga mangyari ehhh..
aun.
mapunta kami sa agoo para lang magsimba.
(perfect excuse para maglakwatsa.. hehehe)
-- first time ko dito sa simbahan na 'to.. hmmmmm *sabay buntong hininga* wala lang matagal na naming pumunta dito ni bro pero laging balak lang ngaun unexpectedly natuloy na din.. hehehe. Galing noh..
Relating it to LIFE, may mga bagay talaga na pingadadasal natin, akala natin ung mga bagay na yon di sinasagot ni Boss, akala lang pala natin un eventually pagdating ng tamang panahon marerealize mong sinagot niya pala yun.. IN WAYS YOU NEVER EXPECTED IT TO BE.
sabi nga diba, "if you prayed for hope, he will not give you hope but the opportunity to HOPE". It's how we react to the opportunity that God gives us that really matters.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
unggoi ka!
Nakakatawa kung paanong hindi ko alam kung paano ako magkwento dito ngaun diba.. hay! simple lang kasi ang nangyari...
nagsimula nang wala lang isang kalokohan lahat, sa isang JOKE.. joke na tawagin akong "bibe" imbis na "baby"... joke lahat... nalay ko ba na aabot sa ganitong panahon, ahy grabeh...
unggoi nga talaga un.. hehehe. ewan ko ba, kung bakit hindi ko xa nasabihan ng "don't fall in love wid me.." hehehe.. MALAY ko ba...
kaya ko na pang lumabas kasama ang iba at hindi ang past ko... achievement to.. hehehe...
malay ko ba, baka bigla din akong iwanan nito at paiyakin ng bonggang bonga..
oh baka kasi dumating pa sa point na, hindi na kami magkakilala.. hehehe.
Wag naman ahhhh... mamimiss ko ang unggoi na 'to.
kasama ko pag MASAYA....
at MALUNGKOT?
kasi....
cute kami together.. (ano aangal ka?)
Thursday, January 29, 2009
ewan
magulo nga ata ang isip ko..
magulo nga ba?
waaah.
actually ni ako di ko alam...
sa pananaw ng mga tao sa paligid ko,hindi.
bakit nga naman magiging magulo?
una, makakamove on na ako.. moving forward in terms of my feelings sa dati kong relationship more than two years ago.. syempre malaking step un para sa akin (no communication, wala lahat) anyway, kahit magkaibigan eh wala na atang pag asa paano ba namn, parang ayaw na talaga nia ako sa buhay niya well, natuto na ako (sana).. wag nang umasa.. kung ayaw ka ng isang tao, bakit mo pa ipagpipilitan ang sarili mo sakanya. Gumagawa ka lang ng malaking rason para masaktan ka. Nagsawa narin ako eh, mapagod pala ung term.. ewan ko. hangang ngaton hindi ko rin alam. Sguro, i will accept kung saan nga xa mapupunta.. ganun talaga ang buhay eh, sabi nga nila "People really COME and GO". At least I ve learned something from him.. natuto akong "magmahal, masaktan" nakakatuwa lang talaga at nagtagal ako sa STUPID stage.. ang pag momove on.
pangalawa, bulag ang pag ibig? in english.. love is blind? hehehe. unti unti na akong nakakaramdam na kailangan ko din palang maging masaya.. walang masama.. pero di ko nga lang sila masyadong nakikita, bulag padin ata ako.. (hahahah) hay nako... sabi niya, naswerte ako dahil sa kanya.. (makapal talaga ang mukha).
Hmmmmm, kiding aside, nakakatakot palang magseryoso ang taong hindi reryoso. kasi basta, malalaman at mararamdaman mo pala ung pagkakaiba nun eh... nakakatakot, baka ngay mahalin niya ako. Tama ata sila, nagka phobia ako na mag mahal, eh kasi naman baka masaktan na naman ako, umiyak na naman ako.. at maramdaman ko na naman lahat ng yon... Sana naman hindi. Pero at the same time, AYAW ko nang umasa, baka masaktan lang agad ako. Kung ano yung magyari let it be.
pangatlo, RESPOSIBILIDAD. tatlong org.. MESSIAH (officer ako dun...) jrFINEX (working com ako, trainee officer ako).. at CAC chorale. (member ako).. maraming trabaho.. magagawa ko lahat.. oo, walang duda un, hmmmm... pero hindi kao lagi si super woman na kaya ko to everytime... magigipit na ako sa oras. minsan nga pati oras para sa sarili ko eh, nawawala na.... pati kila betzy at bibe.. (tugsh, may ganun talaga ehh) un, alam ko ther will come a tym na papipiliin ako dun sa dalawa.. mahirap kasi pareho na silang malapit sa puso ko... hindi man sa parehong degree pero ayaw ko tlagang may iwanan eh.. grabi. ayaw ko pang tingnan kung wat lies ahead sa dalawang org na to... tatanungin ko nalang sarili ko.. "kaya ko ba to?" EWAN ko. kailangan ko pa ng maraming time para mag isip mabuti.
--- pala ang busyng buhay,, grabe, pagtulog nalang talaga ang tanging pahinga. hehehe pero masaya ako ngayon dahil nakapagblog uli ako.. hehehe.
magulo nga ba?
waaah.
actually ni ako di ko alam...
sa pananaw ng mga tao sa paligid ko,hindi.
bakit nga naman magiging magulo?
una, makakamove on na ako.. moving forward in terms of my feelings sa dati kong relationship more than two years ago.. syempre malaking step un para sa akin (no communication, wala lahat) anyway, kahit magkaibigan eh wala na atang pag asa paano ba namn, parang ayaw na talaga nia ako sa buhay niya well, natuto na ako (sana).. wag nang umasa.. kung ayaw ka ng isang tao, bakit mo pa ipagpipilitan ang sarili mo sakanya. Gumagawa ka lang ng malaking rason para masaktan ka. Nagsawa narin ako eh, mapagod pala ung term.. ewan ko. hangang ngaton hindi ko rin alam. Sguro, i will accept kung saan nga xa mapupunta.. ganun talaga ang buhay eh, sabi nga nila "People really COME and GO". At least I ve learned something from him.. natuto akong "magmahal, masaktan" nakakatuwa lang talaga at nagtagal ako sa STUPID stage.. ang pag momove on.
pangalawa, bulag ang pag ibig? in english.. love is blind? hehehe. unti unti na akong nakakaramdam na kailangan ko din palang maging masaya.. walang masama.. pero di ko nga lang sila masyadong nakikita, bulag padin ata ako.. (hahahah) hay nako... sabi niya, naswerte ako dahil sa kanya.. (makapal talaga ang mukha).
Hmmmmm, kiding aside, nakakatakot palang magseryoso ang taong hindi reryoso. kasi basta, malalaman at mararamdaman mo pala ung pagkakaiba nun eh... nakakatakot, baka ngay mahalin niya ako. Tama ata sila, nagka phobia ako na mag mahal, eh kasi naman baka masaktan na naman ako, umiyak na naman ako.. at maramdaman ko na naman lahat ng yon... Sana naman hindi. Pero at the same time, AYAW ko nang umasa, baka masaktan lang agad ako. Kung ano yung magyari let it be.
pangatlo, RESPOSIBILIDAD. tatlong org.. MESSIAH (officer ako dun...) jrFINEX (working com ako, trainee officer ako).. at CAC chorale. (member ako).. maraming trabaho.. magagawa ko lahat.. oo, walang duda un, hmmmm... pero hindi kao lagi si super woman na kaya ko to everytime... magigipit na ako sa oras. minsan nga pati oras para sa sarili ko eh, nawawala na.... pati kila betzy at bibe.. (tugsh, may ganun talaga ehh) un, alam ko ther will come a tym na papipiliin ako dun sa dalawa.. mahirap kasi pareho na silang malapit sa puso ko... hindi man sa parehong degree pero ayaw ko tlagang may iwanan eh.. grabi. ayaw ko pang tingnan kung wat lies ahead sa dalawang org na to... tatanungin ko nalang sarili ko.. "kaya ko ba to?" EWAN ko. kailangan ko pa ng maraming time para mag isip mabuti.
--- pala ang busyng buhay,, grabe, pagtulog nalang talaga ang tanging pahinga. hehehe pero masaya ako ngayon dahil nakapagblog uli ako.. hehehe.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
bibe...
anu nga ba tayo?
sabi nila tayo
di pa totoo pero
may pag asa kayang magkatotoo?
nakakatawa kung paano ka dumating
ni hindi ko alam kung paano ako naantig?
sa mga bagay na matagal ko na namang hilig
na ni minsan di ako kinilig
nakakagulat noon eh halos dakila tayong magbarahan
wala pang katapusan na nagbabangayan
kahit nga san nag ookrayan
pero kahit kailan di matapos ang kasiyahan
nasasakyan lahat ng trip...
..nagdradramahan na pang-famas pa
..nanganangarap ng mga pangarap na sana di lang hangang pangarap
..nananahimik ng sabay
..nakikilala ang sarili
at higit sa lahat sumasaya ang buhay.
--ni hindi ko man naisip na may ganitong tao na andito na pala sa buhay ko.. nakakatawang isipin kung paano nga ba nagsimula ang ganitong kalokohan.. ni ako hindi ko rin alam. tsktsk. delikado yan.
CAC chorale
"The most important thing in a competition is not to win but to take part, just as the most important thing in life is not the triumph but the struggle. The essential thing is not to have conquered but to have fought well. " Welcome to a group filled with laughter and joy. A group filled with hope, wisdom, dreams and happy memories. From all the past struggles,troubles and hard times that this group had experienced, there's one thing that kept this group standing strong no matter how rough the storm there is. . . .it's the TRUE FRIENDSHIP!!!..=)
--yan ang CAC chorale... hmmm, sobrang daming lessons learned ngaung music fest 09.. yeah, hindi nga namin naiuwe ang gold pero we know that deep in our hearts.. hehehe masaya kami! naman...
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